An Honest Post {Motherhood}

Ive been feeling so guilty lately. I see all these mamas spending all this quality time with their kiddos and I feel inadequate. I know it's not healthy to compare ourselves to others, but it is something I struggle with. I feel like a failure when I try to juggle schoolwork, cooking, cleaning, laundry, babysitting, blogging, being a good wife, and being a stay at home mom and I am not able to do it as gracefully as others seem to be. There are times when I have to tell Abigail no when she wants to go to the park because I have tons of homework to finish or I leave her to play by herself in her playroom when I'm trying to get housework done and it hurts my heart to know that I can't do it all. I put my blog on the back burner and I don't get the crafts done I've been wanting to do. But its all a lie. It isn't what truly matters. So I take a day like today and I let the dishes sit, make the homework wait, let the laundry pile up and I just spend the day with my girl. I always think that she needs it, but it turns out that I need a day like today more than she does. I put all of my attention on her and we do things that we do not get to do every day. And somewhere in the fun of the day it happens. She reminds me that she loves me and that I will always be good enough for her. She runs up to me in the middle of playing at the park and grabs my cheeks and gives me a kiss, or on the ride home she asks to hold my hand and I remember what truly matters. It isn't that I be the best compared to everyone else, but its the fact that I love her with all my heart and nothing can get in the way of that. Not even housework or assignments due. I remember that Heavenly Father entrusted her to me and I was meant to be her mama. I realize that I am good enough and I have a divine calling because motherhood is one of the most sacred callings. I learn that children have more grace than we could ever imagine. And then I am thankful. I feel truly blessed and I stop worrying so much about how I am compared to others and I start being good enough for me. At the end of the day all that really matters is that we try to be our best self and that we love with all our hearts. Our children will love us and teach us every day and for that I am thankful.